In the late 1990s, I began posting what I then called a “weekly column” or “web essay.” Long story short, I called the column “It’s All About Me! (the column).” These days, I’m not so convinced sharing my personal experiences will be of interest to others. Not because I think they are uninteresting, but because the www is flooded with post after post written by people who find themselves interesting.
I’ve missed writing about my experiences, though, on the ultra-personal level that personal blogging allows; my newspaper column must relate to current events and I must keep the readers in mind. I know that sharing my experience can benefit others, if only because they might feel less alone in their own foibles and peculiarities. But I also know that these days, we all need a lot of emotional energy to stay strong in the fight against fascism and I don’t want to add to the noise.
Posting here on this personal blog with very little traffic, I think I can play with those old experiences of sharing my stories and reaching readers while also not taking up any spotlight that should be shining on other voices. Maybe I can do some good without doing any harm.
these dots and words are meant to keep the wordpress ads away from my post :-)
In less than two months, I’ve learned a few things about having all this extra time now that both of my daughters are in school five days a week:
- Everyone I talk to thinks about how much time they have, don’t have, how they could use it better, how best to manage it;
- Because I allow myself time for tasks that previously fell much lower down on my priorities list, I’m more busy than before both girls were in school;
- My too-busy is stressful, but it’s at a more mindful pace than when I had at least one kiddo with me most of the time;
- The chronic health issues I’ve dealt with over the years might have been expressions of the physical and emotional stress that came with trying to make a living while single parenting non-school-age children (tbd);
- Having time available to contemplate how to best manage my time is a significant improvement in my life;
- I think about—I’m an introvert in the extreme, so I don’t act on this much—having a personal life beyond the survival level;
- Self-care is rising on my priorities list.
Anxiety over finances has me considering a new no groceries challenge. With 3-5 school lunches x2 each week it would be a much more significant challenge. Perhaps a modified version…
(Just a “checking in” blog post to stop the darned spammers from thinking this site is inactive!)
In my last post, I described my feelings as I face more “free” time than I’ve had in over a decade.
Today, I’ll share with you what I’ve learned from this new-found freedom:
- My business has a task list that—now that I have time to look at it closely—seems unending. Personal tasks still have to wait.
- Advanced food prep will still help keep me sane.
- Managing time well is now the most important part of my day.
- Posting to this blog may be a part of my regular routine, even if it’s only interesting to me. :-)
- How, how, how did I ever get everything done before? There’s still no time to get everything done! (Answer: I didn’t get it all done. I was making myself sick trying, though.)
I still have “too much to do,” but I now have the luxury of taking a bit of time to figure out how I’ll get it (mostly) all done.
I’m still basking in gratitude.