I’m not finding it easy to use this website/blog as a place to share my random thoughts and updates (like I would usually do on Facebook). Here, it’s a bit of an echo chamber (even though I know my parents get the posts via email (hi, Mom and Dad!)) so I know someone is reading them.
Things I might share on Facebook that aren’t personal updates seem too trivial to waste a post on (so I skip them altogether). That’s an upside to this new exploration.
Transitioning this to a place where I just write and share “whatever” is awkward. Most of the posts on here I thought about a bit and edited and made “worth sharing” (in my mind).
A couple days ago I shared this on Facebook:
Since then, I’ve been thinking about the days when my website was just me blathering on about whatever I wanted to blather on about. It was a quieter time, as not many people were Internetting (late 90s) in those days. I mean, a lot of us were, but not like it is today.
Sometimes I think about giving up Facebook. It goes against my values on so many levels. But, as the mega-corporation intended, I know I’d miss my connections with friends and family if I cut it out entirely; too many social activities depend on Facebook membership for me to delete my account.
That said, I think I’m going to get real casual about this blog. Who knows if anyone will read it? Some might, but most won’t. The Internet is a loud, loud place. There isn’t room for train-of-thought journal-style posts in the world of high click/reader counts.
I used to enjoy writing about whatever I wanted to write about. Sometimes people read it! Sometimes people “signed my guestbook,” I think it was called back then. Oh, the hand coding felt so fancy! I remember making a guestbook with my earthlink account’s website. Not sure where the server was, it’s all kind of a blur. Anyway… I think I’m going to start posting little life updates and thoughts-as-I-have-them here again instead of posting to Facebook.
This one, I’ll share on Facebook and twitter. After this post, I’m not going to “promote” any of this. I’m just going to have fun. :-)
In the late 1990s, I began posting what I then called a “weekly column” or “web essay.” Long story short, I called the column “It’s All About Me! (the column).” These days, I’m not so convinced sharing my personal experiences will be of interest to others. Not because I think they are uninteresting, but because the www is flooded with post after post written by people who find themselves interesting.
I’ve missed writing about my experiences, though, on the ultra-personal level that personal blogging allows; my newspaper column must relate to current events and I must keep the readers in mind. I know that sharing my experience can benefit others, if only because they might feel less alone in their own foibles and peculiarities. But I also know that these days, we all need a lot of emotional energy to stay strong in the fight against fascism and I don’t want to add to the noise.
Posting here on this personal blog with very little traffic, I think I can play with those old experiences of sharing my stories and reaching readers while also not taking up any spotlight that should be shining on other voices. Maybe I can do some good without doing any harm.
these dots and words are meant to keep the wordpress ads away from my post :-)
In less than two months, I’ve learned a few things about having all this extra time now that both of my daughters are in school five days a week:
- Everyone I talk to thinks about how much time they have, don’t have, how they could use it better, how best to manage it;
- Because I allow myself time for tasks that previously fell much lower down on my priorities list, I’m more busy than before both girls were in school;
- My too-busy is stressful, but it’s at a more mindful pace than when I had at least one kiddo with me most of the time;
- The chronic health issues I’ve dealt with over the years might have been expressions of the physical and emotional stress that came with trying to make a living while single parenting non-school-age children (tbd);
- Having time available to contemplate how to best manage my time is a significant improvement in my life;
- I think about—I’m an introvert in the extreme, so I don’t act on this much—having a personal life beyond the survival level;
- Self-care is rising on my priorities list.
Anxiety over finances has me considering a new no groceries challenge. With 3-5 school lunches x2 each week it would be a much more significant challenge. Perhaps a modified version…
(Just a “checking in” blog post to stop the darned spammers from thinking this site is inactive!)